Pascal’s DEATH experience (for 6 very long minutes!) … and 7 subsequent SURGERIES + dozens of procedures!

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Bonjour my dearest Friends! 💖💗💖

Since very many of you have so kindly expressed a lot of interest in reading more about my crazy roller coaster of endless health “bad news “, struggles, and sheer bad luck😷🤒🤕 , undergoing by now 7 consecutive SURGERIES in A ROW over these past year or so, all starting with my MASSIVE HEART ATTACK during which I, very unfortunately, “died” for “only”😉 6 very VERY longggg minutes 😳- so I decided to group all of the various posts that I had done on Facebook and related to my little struggling health journey, here under for you to access as needed…

I truly hope that my modest words and sharings will both bring support and love to YOUR OWN journey and struggles, whichever they might be… and that they will also fill up your heart with endless gratefulness and sunshine 💗 if you happen to be so lucky as to NOT have any major health issues…
And all along I very sincerely hope that my words and sharings will also bring SMILES and LAUGHS to your day and reading of my posts from my playing silly and goofy at every opportunity I had while being in the midst of this endless roller coaster (and whenever my level of pain was temporarily bearable enough to give me a chance to be little me again! 😊🤓😜)… and such whether it was right during my many surgeries… or after… or during one of my sooooo many procedures and tests… or during my too many trips to the Emergency Room!

With much MUCH love to YOU 💗 as well as to all the people who live in your heart 💗

pascal

ps. of course by all means feel free to comment as you wish on any of my posts… share your own experiences… and ask me any questions at all that you would like for me to answer and write about.
As you probably know by now, my entire life is, by choice, a very open and very transparent book, one with endless new surprises, turns and twists… 😊 all while choosing a level of total vulnerability, sharing my deepest fears and worries just as much as my happiest and silliest moments… why not right ?
Life and emotions are too beautiful to be secretive, shameful, or un-shared… I truly believe that we are all one and the same, and that we all also have both suffering and joys in our lives, and in our hearts… and sharing it all allows us to connect so much more and on such a deeper level, with always so much more love and intimacy, and what could ever be more beautiful right!?…💗👫👬👭

 

ps2: …and if you would like to sprinkle your day with a few words of Love, Caring, Support and Inspiration, feel free to check this new section that I created on one of my websites… I truly hope that my modest words will bring some love to your day, and to you heart 💗http://photographybypascal.com/galleries/pascals-inspirational-series/

… and if you would like to enjoy even more INSPIRATION, LOVE and SUPPORT into your own journey ❤ feel free to take a peek into my modest BOOK by clicking here (it is now available on AMAZON). It has brought love and support to many… and it will bring a big smile to my own heart… if it brings love and support to yours 💕  Life is all about LOVE and PEOPLE and being there for each other… everything else is SO unimportant…

So after more than 2 years in the making my little book is finally completed and released 😍 and it features 100 of my original, and most popular, Inspirational Quotes (as well as very many of my Fine Art Photographs, and some of my Poetry as well), all spread out over 133 pages.

I truly hope that my modest quotes will humbly help you to dry a few tears (as they occasionally and inevitably come to our days, and to our souls, from life’s endless challenges and struggles), while also bringing endless smiles and joys to your lips, and to your heart 💗 on your very many todays, and tomorrows…

With much much (not a typo 🙂 ) love to YOU 💗

pascal

 

 

 

 

 

…and here is now for you, in REVERSE chronological order, a few of my posts (and copies of some of my Facebook posts) about a few of the milestones of my little health and “massive heart attack + 7 surgeries and countless procedures” roller coaster journey of those past few months…

* copy of one of my recent Facebook’s posts for my friends and followers *
… when you are being a “good patient” 😊🤓😉 and… “practicing positions” 😉 while waiting for your… urologists to come in… Yoga positions… “DRE” positions… all one and the same 😉 lol kind of 😉
… and when one of your Doctors (I now probably have close to 20 of them caring for me in various specialties and for various body parts hurting or malfunctioning… all of them trying to keep me around just a little longer 😉 which I am deeply GRATEFUL to them 💗 for of course! ) makes the BIGGGG MISTAKE to leave you alone with a brand new toy 🙂 … and you have NO CLUE about WHERE this one… is going to be inserted next inside your body?😉 lol

* copy of one of my recent Facebook’s posts for my friends and followers *

Well… UNC made the BIGGGG mistake to… let me play with a machine once again!!! 😉 🙂

… and what better things to do on a beautiful friday afternoon than… go through again and again, some more kidney exams since I have been dealing with, once again, really horrible kidney pain for the past few days 🙁 – my right kidney STILL has 6 stones, including one close to 8mm which means that I can never “pass it” and will mean soon yet another surgery…
It will be surgery #8 and that one is truly horribly painful 🙁 I would redo any of the other 6 surgeries without any hesitation if necessary but… this one was by far the very worst! and I very much fear having to do it again…) … but anyways… life’s randomness of health “bad luck” can be quite infinite isn’t it!?… as I am starting to become a poster boy for! lol
 
And since I am in the hospital, what else can I do while chatting with a super wonderful and charming tech… than making photo/video material 😉 ❤ … all the constant pain in my body is never enough of a reason to stop living, smiling and creating isn’t it? 😉 both joys and pain can totally cohabit in one’s day… in one’s moment… and I certainly I never EVER ❤ want to miss a single drop of all the joys and smiles and connection with others… ❤
Life is all about people, love, connections and smiles… ❤ and I truly hope that yours is the very same ❤
 
And if you live here in NC, I hope that you are enjoying this AMAZINGGGG weather out there gifted to us ❤
 
With much MUCH love to YOU ❤
 
pascal

 

* copy of one of my recent Facebook’s posts for my friends and followers *

…when your KIDNEY SURGEON sends you a very special present in the mail… a beautiful orange container… and he asks you to… COLLECT ALL YOUR PEE in it for 48 HOURS!!!!

Hummmm… why not right?… super practical to carry this with you everywhere! lol … and will be quite even more funny if you see me around for the coming 48 hours… carrying that beautifullll very fashionable (NOT! lol ) container! lol
 
Surgeons are such funny tricksters aren’t they!? 😉
 
lots of loveeee to you ❤
 
pascal

* copy of one of my recent Facebook’s posts for my friends and followers *

 

… when you, of course, can’t resist goofing around while struggling with a major tooth infection 😰and getting a full panoramic XRays…

No matter how much pain, there is still always room for us to have fun❤🐣❤ and bring laughters and smiles to the people around us…

ps: as a cute additional note and anecdote to share with you… you will crack up knowing that, on that same day, I was creating a full team GROUP PORTRAIT for a team of… yap… DENTAL SURGEONS! lol  Life is super funny and cute like that oftentimes 😉😍😀   (here under 2 of the Photos created on that day… ) 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

my 7th surgery… and YES, as depicted in this photo, I am now a PROFESSIONAL… NAPPER! 😉

* copy of one of my recent Facebook’s posts for my friends and followers *


MEDICATIONS / DRUGS interactions if you are taking many meds to “stay around” 😉 as I do…

Bonjour my dear Friends 💗
here is a very interesting link for those of you who, just like little me, take way too many meds to “stay around” 😉 💗 just a little longer…
(thank you so much Ginny Hall 🙂 for bringing it to my attention! )
 
These days I am personally between… hummm… roughly 7 and 10 different medications each day! 🤕😓 (I really think that I SO should get a “Med Heavy User” sticker or chocolate or some kind of prize isn’t it!? 😉  ) … between all my heart meds and many other health issues, and depending on how much pain I do experience on any given day from various body parts and issues… and needless to say, all of these meds DO mess a LOT with my whole system, both in their own side effects as well as in regards to their bad interactions!… Pretty much every single day these days I get extremely tired, experience an hourly roller coasted of feeling very “off” and dizzy very easily, exhausted, painful migraines, experiencing major cramps and endless other side and interaction effects… so if YOU on the other hand, maybe are SO incredibly lucky as to take NO daily meds… or only need 2 or 3 to manage your life… PLEASE 💗 be super GRATEFUL 💗3 for it all and go give a big kiss to your mirror every morning <3 a kiss of gratefulness, awareness of how lucky you are, gratefulness to have a chance to live this beautiful day to come, functional and able… a HUGE privilege that so many around you don’t have anymore, or never had in the first place…
 
And even if destiny has now so decided for my life to be quite very struggling to say the least… knowing that YOUR LIFE and YOUR BODY are doing GREAT or GOOD, and very ABLE and very FUNCTIONAL will truly bring a big smile to my heart 💗💗💗
 
Please feel free to share here under either how much YOU also might be struggling with having to take too many meds… or how super grateful you are that you do not… it is all about love and sharing with each other 💗 … and being there for each other 💗 always… and always more 💗 🙂
 
With much MUCH love to YOU 💗
 
pascal
 

I just, once again, spent the night at UNC’s Emergency Room… and I thought that I would share with you my personal tip on… how to sneak out of the ER to go get… yummy Soppressata to make your night better!!! <3

 

little health update about a brand new health issue (why not right!?… since it seems that I now have a VIP subscription to “health struggles”… apparently so! 😉

 

 

 

 

 

 

…a little sharing for those of you who, unfortunately and fortunately, just like me, have one of those little bugger 😉 implanted deep inside your chest… along with a few of those wires going inside your heart… such an AMAZINGGGGG miracle of technology isn’t it?…

Without the whole defibrillation technology I simply would not… well… be writing these words to you!!! <3
Some people are just SOOO BRILLIANT at creating amazing wonders that keep us alive <3 and I want to extend my deepest gratitude to all of them <3 <3 <3
 
ps: to the right is my arm a couple of days after the surgery to implant the ICD deep into my chest – and 2 wires going into my heart – I got “just a little” 😉 bruised ! lol

 

If you are, just like me, experiencing DAILY deep physical and emotional PAIN and STRUGGLES which are “invisible” to the eye…

💬 Super BRIEF ” FLASH Update “ 💬 😉🤒😍
Bonjour my Dearest Friends 💗
try to guess… where I am!? 😉 once again! 🙂
And guess what!? YES they made that hugeeee mistake once again to… let me play with the toys and entertain them! … all while getting ready for more XRays and MRI at UNC SPINE CENTER (due to new symptoms that I am dealing with).
UNC’s #1 RULE should always be ” DO NOT LET CHILDREN PLAY with the MEDICAL EQUIPMENT!!! ” just sayin’ 😉
With much MUCH love to YOU 💗
pascal

just another day in my little ” Let’s live on HALF A HEART! ” journey…

 

there are only 2 places where you just do NOT enjoy being recognized! lol … one is Prison… and the other is… the Emergency Room! lol – and unfortunately I now seem to get recognized at the latter! 😉 lol

 

so, guess what!?… today is my 1 Year Anniversary from the day I died… for 4 very VERY long minutes !

 

what I must take every day… to stay around just a little longer 😉

 

rushing to UNC’s Emergency Room, ONCE AGAIN, in excruciating pain…

 

Well! let’s be very honest! my kidney stone surgery’s post op pain was… PURE HELL!

 

… a modest Thank You that I just posted about my AMAZING daughter and son…

 

update – pre surgery fun while running more tests the day before the surgery…

udate 30 – 11 16 2018 UNC pre op pre surgery visit

 

update 28 – my next surgery (6th in a row) is now set at UNC for this Thursday… to grab one of my 8 kidney stones…

 

update 27-pre surgery check up at the Hospital

 

update #26-(Day 297) SURGERY scheduled😳+ the “Hunt” has been upgraded to “Hunt for the now 8 kidney stones!” 🤔🤓

 

* update #25 * (Day 286! ) the “Hunt for the 5 sneaky kidney stones” continues ! 

 

* update #24  * – Day 277 – quick little update on the 5 KIDNEY STONES who have decided that my kidneys and ureters are, apparently, super comfy and welcoming! lol  

 

update #23  – Day 256 – brand new little health struggle for little me… not just 1 or 2, but… 5 KIDNEY STONES! who decided that my kidneys were very loving and welcoming…

 

update #22  – Day 241 post Heart Attack – trying to PLAY FISHY again… and swim laps again…

 

 

and now a few food for thoughts about…  getting a VASECTOMY! 🤓😍 Why not right? lol

so here is for you, from my Facebook postings, a very random extra MEDICAL sharing that I did for my online followers on Facebook etc… and thought of including here in case information about VASECTOMIES could be helpful to you 😍

and here is now a … super random lol sharing with you and as you know that I have been sharing many “medical stuff” 😉, and as so many of you have told how much they enjoy it and talking about it freely as I love to do ❤ … so my today’s sharing is about… VASECTOMIES!!! lol – Yippppi yay to that subject !!!😉 or not ! lol

Anyways… for those of you considering doing it (if, like me, you happen to have 2 little “chestnuts” 😉 in your mid section😉 and… you ALSO happen to be 100% sure that you do not want to have more babies… or any… OR … for those of you from the “more evolved gender” (what!? did I just write that? of course I did, for I have no doubt that it is soooo true… and it is so beautiful that it is true ❤ – sorry guys, time for you to embrace GRATITUDE for the beautiful more advanced evolving of the female gender… instead of either thinking otherwise😉 – or thinking “competition” … both not being such good ways to live your heart 🙁 Gratitude and admiration, on the other hand, are 2 GREAT AMAZING ways to live your heart ❤
 
OK… enough tangents here 😉 ( just like the Dog in “UP” that so many of my friends describe me as… you know when the doggie is SUPER distractable and goes “SQUIRREL!” lol .. that’s pretty much me 🙂 )
 
So… back to the V subject as in … vasectomyyyyyyy 😉 … so here are just a few thoughts to share with you if you are considering for yourself, or for your “partner in love” (doesn’t that sound soooo much better than “partner in crime”? right?😉 ) to get a Vasectomy… the end results are of course AMAZINGGGG… no risk of making unexpected babies… tons of saving on condoms and other contraceptions for the Lady ❤ and … no more “never so good” contraception drugs and devices in the beautiful body of the Woman who you love… and love to make love to, and with ❤
 

In my personal case in my relationship of that time, my companion had her IUD running out… and she had financial difficulties so I thought to myself ” you know what?… I am 100% sure I do not want to make any more babies… and I want to help you save that money… so why don’t I, for once, take on a “serious” commitment to contraception and do my share ❤ and… get a vasectomy!? ” 😎😍 to which she replied “Are you really sure?…” and to which I said ” Yap! my turn to participate in a major way … I will schedule it for next week! ” … and did just that ❤ And for the many men in my situation out there… PLEASE consider doing the same… Women, SO generously, and SO selflessly, do SO MANY THINGS in regards of dealing with contraception and periods and menopause and soooo many other unpleasant things… when we, as men, have a chance to do something… let’s just do it, as a simple and deep and sincere THANK YOU for all they do and sacrifice for us  ❤

When I see men lacking deep gratefulness for all that Women do and endure, I sometimes wish… “OK … little magic wand… and let’s give MEN… super painful mohtly pain for the coming 12 months… just one tiny year… and let’s see if they develop a whole new REVERENCE and APPRECIATION and ADMIRATION for all the Women in their life and days?…
Who want to hand me … a magic wand? 😉 I promise I WILL use it ! 😉
 
OK back to Vasectomy food for thoughts 😉 … now the MAIN advice that I want to share… and that I did NOT follow personally (and which costed me a lot of very unnecessary pain 🙁 for over a year ) is do NOT make love aka. use your little friend for ANYTHING 😉 for at least 2 full weeks!!! just don’t!… the Doctors tell you to wait a week… I waited… well… 24 hrs! lol 100% to blame on myself of course… no one else… not even the gorgeous latina who I was with back then… 100% my fault! but … lesson learned… if I ever do it again-in another life 😉 – I WILL wait 2 weeks as everything should go super easy if you do ❤ and … not easy at all if you don’t and as I learned the hard way (Trader Joe’s bags of frozen peas became my best friend for a year! lol )
 
If you have ANY questions about it at all that I can modestly help you with.. PLEASE do not hesitate to ask me here or PM… sharing about everything in a very open way, and being there for each other is always a gift to both hearts ❤
 
With much much love to YOU ❤
 
pascal
 
ps: a couple of snapshots of what happens when you do it… and as many people might not know what they actually cut (in my case they CUT the 2 vas + cautherized them + clamped them – tripple efficiency! yayyyyy! ❤ lol – a little bit of smoke came out my crotch when they did but … Oh well… that’s what smoke alarms in surgeries rooms are for isn’t it!? 😉 )

 

ps2: and last photo to share with you… this is what MIGHT happen to you if you… let your libido win over your mind and reason just as… I DID! lol
These are my “4 times a day best friends” for over a year of lotssss of pain!  Yaks! Live and learn ! lol

ps3: and here is a link to my super duper Buddy in “UP” – him and I are one and the same… ADD wise of course 😉

update #21 – driving to the ER at 3am as I can’t breathe + back to the Hospital a week later for more extensive tests…

update #20 – 3rd infection of my Defibrillator’s scar/opening !…

update #19 – New infection of Defibrillator’s site…

 

update 18 – My massive HEART ATTACK + 5 surgeries in a row…

Update #17 – barely a few weeks after my massive heart attack, “destiny” had decided that it wanted to throw a little bit more additional challenges to little me🤔🙄 and… within a matter of a few hours… I suddenly lost 90% of the use of my right arm, not even being able to hold a cup of water or feed myself anymore with my right hand (in addition to horrible sharp pain coming with it all) and after an emergency Brain + Spine MRI that very same day at UNC, it was decided that I now needed SPINAL FUSION SURGERY (for which, due to my way too recent heart attack, happened to be, as I was explained very quickly, incredibly RISKY, with 1 in 50 or so change to die (again 😉 in my case!) on the surgery table…
Well, I got super duper lucky 💗😊   and made it!!!… and did not die on the table…

Youpi YAYYYY to that! 🙂 all thanks to my AMAZING Spine SURGEON Dr. LIM and thanks to all the AMAZING Cardio team that was present… just in case 😉 )

 

 

 

This little video that I thought of sharing here, was the very beginning of a long PT Rehab, all starting the very next day of the surgery, at UNC Hillsborough… all and filmed (soo I would remember my exercises… and this moment) by my amazing ex companion Leah   💗 … and in the hands of my so wonderful Physical Therapist !

 

The BEGINNING of wole new journey… after my life suddenly and brutally ended… on January 26th, at 1:04 am or so… all alone in my home (I called 911 as was feeling horribleeee 🙁 then unlocked my front door… then collapsed on my kitchen floor… died totally for 6mn. or so… then next time I saw “life” was at Duke’s Hospital ICU… and I looked “not so great” 😉 … like this……… the beginning of a longggg journey of suffering and pain and so many new limitations… but… my heart (the EMOTIONAL one <3 , as my “physical heart” got 40% of it killed during my massive heart attack!)