Bonjour my Dearest Friends…
This is my modest sharing for today about my health journey… in this case about a moment happening just a few minutes right before being taken to my 6th surgery, at UNC, in november of 2018.
This is simply a message that I decided to write for, and to, Stephanie and Jeremy, my truly amazing children… and to Stephanie in particular and as Jeremy was in France at that time…
… sometimes, thorough all the tears and all the horrible pain… you are also blessed with immense love… and I am referring here to Love with a big L… that love that we can offer to each other only because we choose to make it so, to build it so… one act of kindness and of caring at a time… over very many years… over decades even… that Love that we have for our children ❤️… that Love that makes life all worth it and meaningful… and that Love that progressively… and as they grow into amazing adults… they one day, so unexpectedly, gift us back…
So as I reflect today on so many things that happened over the past few months, I thought of sharing with you that very personal photo of a hug shared with Stephanie at UNC, a week ago, right before my 6th surgery…
This photo is so incredibly and forever precious to my heart and entire life’s journey ❤️… Stephanie has been SO BEYOND AMAZING and has truly been my constant rock of help and caring and support and love and patience and healing through my hell of this past year… and I can never ever thank her enough for it all ❤️❤️❤️
Life can be very painful and filled with darkness… can even at times feel hopeless… yet is also at other times so incredibly magical like that…
You focus your entire life on helping and caring for and loving your children…and one day, out of nowhere… life goes full circle… you become, so unexpectedly, so un-wantedly, the one who is now weak and vulnerable… and your children gift all that same love and caring back to you… and it brings tears of happiness, gratefulness and fulfillment to my eyes and to my heart to write so… to know so… to experience it all… and it also makes all the tears of excruciating pain all wash and melt away… just like the sunshine piercing through the clouds after a horrible storm…
Stephanie ❤️, ma puce jolie ❤️, mon Bebe ❤️… I will never thank you enough for all you have done for me through all those storms…
I love you forever and ever… and just a little bit longer…❤️
And even if all your trips to so many countries have kept you far away from several of my surgeries and recent health hell and roller coasted, I also want to immensely and deeply thank with all my hear my soooo AMAZING son Jeremy ❤️❤️❤️ who did also brought so much love and caring and help to my surgeries whenever he was in the US with us… the times where you were both in on of the various hospital rooms that I, very regrettably, stayed in, and you were both there to help me and do your best to amuse me to make me forget the pain and the worries.. or when you were both helping me at home or caring for everything and cooking together for the 3 of us etc… are by far some of the happiest times of my life from being all 3 together❤️ and from all the love and caring that you were gifting me❤️… and I can never thank either one of you enough for that…
I SOOOOOOOOOO LOVE YOU BOTH with all my heart… always have and away will… you are both by far the biggest meanings of my entire life ❤️❤️❤️
signed. Votre Papa… aka Dad… aka Pops… aka Daddy
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